Sometime I feel as if the world is moving and I’m stuck in one place… What to do with myself? How to feel? What to think? I can’t think anymore… I just want to sleep… I wanna dream and never wake up to reality… I’m tired of the same thing everyday… I’m tired of work… of life… my life… I want something new… Some worth my wild… I want excitement… I want adventures… I want to see new things, meet new people, experience more than what I am right now… Life just got me in a hole…

New Years Resolution :

- Lose weight (a must)

- Exercise at least 4 days a week

- Get good grades

- Complete 40-60 units

- Pick up my phone… haha… Sorry ppl.

- Get in touch with old friends... I miss them...

- Play tennis again

- Be more open emotionally

- Give people (guys) a chance

- Go to church and get in touch with God again

- Mend my broken heart…

- Find a Boo to call my own… (I hope)

more coming later...

So I checked my voice mail last nite and got this message from one of my friend’s home boy saying how I should stop being stuck up and pick up the phone and come out. First of all how am I stuck up because I don’t have time to talk on the phone or go out so I can see your ass not that I want to in the first place. Why don’t you get the picture that I’m not interested and FUCK OFF! You don’t even know the circumstances, who are you to judge me and say I’m fucken stuck up only because I can’t return a phone call or can’t hang out because I’ve already had plan, fuck you. Not to mention he was drunk, you dumb ass, don’t fucken call me talking shit when your fucken drunk! Quit being so fucken desperate and get the fucken damn picture! Stuck up my FUCKEN ASS! See why I don’t date? Because of dump asses like that!

In other news, my parents just left for Vietnam. I’m kinda scared because there’s no one to take care of the kids. Well there’s Anna but she’s busy with work and hubbie. At time like this I wish I live closer so I can take care of them. I’m so excited for December, can’t wait to go to Vietnam and have a vacation. I swear all I do is work and school and work. I need a vacation so badly… Can’t wait, who wants something? Haha….    

You know what pisses me off? When you try to do something nice for someone and they just treat you like shit… I didn’t do it to get notice, I don’t even really like this person because they always seemed so cold towards me but with my good heart I reach out and tried to help them out by giving them the source that I know of and what do they do, act cold towards me, well you know what? FUCK YOU!!! You ungrateful bastard who isn’t gonna get anywhere in life because your ass is so lazy and don’t even appreciate anyone! I hope life kicks you in the ass even harder… Don’t be sitting on your ass telling us about how people won’t give you a chance to start over… Well guess what? What do you expect when you can’t even prove that you can be trusted or responsible?!? All I can say is grow up… people aren’t gonna give you a chance if you can’t prove yourself to them first, I’m not trying to be mean but it’s life, it’s the real world and you are in the real world… Get use to it and make something of yourself… You mite not make it big now but think everyone starts from the bottom and work their way up… So you better start climbing… Cuz you don’t want to be left at the bottom when everyone’s reaching the top… Good luck to you and I hope that you come to your sense and make something good of yourself because you have potentials… You could if you wanted to… If you wanted it that badly… It doesn’t matter what’s in your past, it’s your past… leave it behind and prove yourself to the world, you can make it… You have your friends and family behind you, so what are you waiting for?? Good luck to you...

The best way to my heart...

Virgo

They key to romancing a Virgo is simple elegance -- take your date out for a tasteful, stylish evening. But don't be too spendy -- your Virgo will be embarrassed by splashy shows of money, and will be more impressed by value rather than amount. Also keep in mind that Virgo rules the house of health, so a date with physical activity (especially outdoors) will be a hit. Or, for a more alternative idea, go for a joint spa treatment. Virgos also love animals, so a date that puts your Virgo in contact with them (like a trip to the zoo!) will earn you a smile.

Suggestions for the perfect date:

*go rollerblading*, go hiking, *feed the ducks*, go to the museum, play miniature golf, *take a walk in a botanical garden*, go wine tasting or go to a wine bar, go to an art exhibit opening, *spend a night in a Bed and Breakfast*, go horse-back riding, *go for a simple but elegant meal*, *take a walking tour of your city*